My work is cut out for me. I have accumulated so much in the 8 years I have lived in this house. I am trying to be a more careful consumer. I don't want to take two steps back with each step forward!
I have a stack of good arty & quilty books that I want to sell...maybe ebay. Not sure how all that goes. It has been on my list of things to do for years! Maybe I was waiting for NOW.
So every day I will continue to toss, donate and share something, until I feel I am sufficiently uncluttered.
In 1997 I had a liberating letting go when I moved with my son & daughter to a two bedroom apartment from a big farmhouse. All my bedroom furniture was forfeited, since for 6 years I had no bedroom to house it. The living room couch was my bed. I didn't mind.
A few years later all my stored belongings had to be trashed. Very sentimental, childhood memento's were covered in mold. I still remember the day I threw away boxes of albums. Albums that were important to me for various reasons. Many things that I had dragged along with me for five moves. It pained me. But in the end it is only "things".
So I have had much experience letting go of things.
It is the letting go of habits, people and high hopes, that are more difficult. They take more emotionally. Harder than the "thing" thing.
This is a year of changes. Some I see right in front of me, some I suspect are on the horizon.
Michael leaves in a few short weeks for boot camp in Oklahoma. When he goes, he is done with life in my care. He will be a soldier and in June, a husband. His room will become part of the letting go. It is the end of an era for me, the mother. My main roll, my first roll...mother. My kids are on their own now, no more in the wings! I have to let go of what has defined me since I was 21 years old.
Work has been getting increasingly more trying both physically and mentally over the last year. I have questioned my stamina to carry on like this for 4 more years. I hope to have options. Of the 33 years with the same company I have been in this position for almost 16 of them, the longest time in one job in all that time.
I have rejoined, again, Weight Watchers. I will be letting go of pounds this year! I so want to let go of the letting go of WW and stick it out to Lifetime.
Will be letting go of some tree lumber and some acres. High hopes.
So I have my 51st year on earth cut out for me. I suspect there are going to be a few things this year that are not unexpected, but will be the epitome of letting go. I wish to be wrong.
I have learned:
- I so enjoy reading Stephen King. 11/22/63 is my current read. He is so adept at nailing each characters essence. The storyline is secondary for me.
- Ricky Gervais is funny. The accent doesn't hurt.
- Shock Wave Therapy done. I should see results within six months with the plantars fascitis.
- The Decemberists. Good listen.
- My carnival challenge for guild is 90% finished. I do have 5 more days!